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[Tuesday, January 17th, 2006 @ 2:20am] |
| Drugs, Future, Life, Love: a great mix | | DRUGS?!?!?! | | Have you ever taken a drug?: | Yes | | If so, how many have you taken?: | 2 | | Are you pro drug or against drugs?: | I think drugs should be around | | Do you think Marijauna will be legalized in your lifetime?: | Nope. | | Where is the weirdest place you've ever done drugs?: | In Chuckie E Cheese Tunnel | | What is your favorite drug of choice?: | Weed | | What is your favorite feeling of a drug?: | My stomach hurting from laughing so much | | Are there any highs that people don't know about?: | Yes. | | Why do you do drugs?: | Because I want to. | | Have you ever shot up heroin or snorted cocaine?: | Uhh, Only 1. | | Do your parents know you do drugs?: | They know I smoke Weed. | | Do they approve or disapprove?: | Can't really stop me. | | Do any of your friends do drugs?: | Yes | | Do you think you'll ever stop taking drugs?: | Yes, once someone really make's me | | The future isn't what it seems... | | What are you going to do with your future?: | Have a family. | | Any goals worth mentioning?: | Nope. | | Are you in school right now?: | Nope. | | Do your friends have high hopes for their futures?: | Yes. | | Are your parents supportive of you?: | When I need it. | | Do you have a dream job?: | Yes | | Do you think you'll get married?: | Yes. | | Have children?: | Yes! | | Are you going to stay in touch with everyone from high school?: | nope, i don't talk to anyone from highschool anymore but 3 people | | Any teachers you're gonna stay in touch with?: | I stay in touch with Mrs. Dudley | | Are you looking forward to graduating high school/college?: | Sure, I was. | | Are you anxious to get out there on your own or scared?: | Anxious...I'm VERY close to moving out. | | Do you think you'll become rich and famous?: | No, money and fame isn't everything. | | What do you NOT want to do in the future?: | Have a horrible life. | | LIFE...and how it applies | | How's life going so far?: | Pretty Good | | Anything cool worth mentioning?: | I found someone amazing | | Are you happy?: | Yes | | Do small things make you happy?: | Yes | | Have you ever thought of suicide?: | Yes | | Have you ever tried?: | Yes | | Why would you do a thing like that? Shame on you: | Because, I thought it was better for me and people around me. | | How old do you think you're going to be before you die naturally?: | I don't care to think about it. | | What makes your life happy?: | Friend's, and a boy. | | What makes it sad?: | Mom and everything dealing with her. | | What do you take for granted?: | My mom | | What are you really thankful for?: | My mom | | Is there anyone you really look up to?: | Mrs. Dudley | | Is life really like a box of chocolates?: | Yes | | Love and cooties | | Are you in love or have you ever been?: | Yes. | | What makes he/she so special?: | Nothing anymore | | Do you think love is overrated?: | Sometimes | | What's the prettiest love song ever made?: | I'll make love to you-Boys 2 Men | | What is one thing you would never do to your lover?: | Stick something up his ass | | Do you think sex is important in a relationship?: | No, but it's healthy :) | | How often do you think about your lover?: | He isn't my LOVER, but often. | | Do you like kissing more than hugs or vice versa?: | I like KISSES | | The coolest time you've ever had with your lover?: | today ;) | | What's the nicest thing you've ever done for them?: | give him a surprise :) | | What's the nicest thing they've ever done for you?: | Waited till I was ready. | | How often do you see him/her?: | Hoepfully VERY OFTEN now. | | If you could be with anyone else, would you be?: | Him | | Is love the same as it's portrayed in the movies as?: | No | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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[Friday, January 13th, 2006 @ 2:09pm] |
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So-Let's fucking See. I don't know when I last updated buttttt- Nothing really has been going on. Last night I went to babysit for my sister-Sarah came with me. We babysat and my sister came home drunk and got the liqour and beer and went back to my aunt jaime's house, and like She walked in a was like "WANT SOME OF THIS WEED" soo, she supplied Sarah and I are weed than me and sarah came home ate popsicle's and I went to bed. Feel asleep soo quickly. My goal for today is to clean my room. I just threw my blanket, sheets, pillow cases in the washer. I have like beer can's all over the place, a 30 pack (which isn't all there) just chilling in the middle of the floor, Which i might drink tonight. And liqour bottle's that have liqour left just chilling everywhere. My room is soo gross cuz it's soo messy. theres just cloth's and beer can's everywhere but still....It's ewwy! But that's just my update.
<3~Valerie.
my mom's case got post-poned 2 more month's.
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[Wednesday, January 11th, 2006 @ 1:56am] |
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Today didn't do to much, Uhm. Went to Lunch with thy madre and padre to KFC. YUM!! I looove their mashed potato's. Than Came home slept for a bit, than my sister came and got me and I went to her house to babysit Jolie and Tyler. Their so cute. I Love my Little Booger's :) Called Sarah and she came over we chilled for awhile and than Kelley dropped off kylee and courtnee so we were watching Jolie, Tyler, Courtnee, and Kylee. HOLY SHIT. It wasn't even BAD at all, they all we're just playing enjoying eachother's company-but kylee was fussy...She was just OVERLY tired. Than April chilled for a bit, than went home to sleep considering we have a HUGH ass looong day tomorrow. We got our house, so tomorrow we're going to go clean it and such and probably move our shit in such as bed, tv, and the girl's bed's so we can just chill there alll day tomorrow =). I'm so excited. I mean seriously who'd ever think, I would move out on my own..well with April of course. It's going to be soo tiiight <3 Than i can alway's see The girl's and Jolie and Tyler can alway's go there too. I mean I seriously Love it. <3
That's the End.
p.s you're really lame now. you're a big disappointment. boo whoo you.
AWW my sister got a dog and he's seriously so cute. He's a black lab so loving and POTTY TRAINED!!! Gawd---I want him. Jack. that's his name. I told Vi i'd go over there and babysit just for the damn dog.
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[Tuesday, January 10th, 2006 @ 1:18am] |
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| thing's will never be the same, that just the way it is..ohh yeaa |
[Monday, January 9th, 2006 @ 12:12am] |
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Wow. It's 12:13 and i'm home. Im home reallllly early. Feel's great though. I need to catch up on my hour's of sleep. I haven't been sleeping alot these past few day's well weekish? Didn't do much today, went to April's mom's ate dinner. YUM the homeless meal was goood <3 Than we just rode around. Got that tape cd player. haha, i know WHO HAS THOSE anymore...lol welp, April and I.
nothing else happened soo holler.
whoo~hoo, can't wait till i move out :)
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[Sunday, January 8th, 2006 @ 3:07am] |
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Ah. So let's see. Today we celebrated my brother's son's birthday (my youngest nephew) It was really nice. My cousin PJ well Paul now since he's all grown up :( came by with his 2 kid's. Their soo adorable, i hadn't seen his new son but he's sooo grown up. lol. Paul Jr is getting like VERY big. He's looking like his uncle Kory everyday. LoL. But yeah. It was verry nice. OMG. my cousin PJ. was doing magic and it was crazy. Like he made a card disappear and it ended up in my back pocket. Than by putting ash's in my hand and there wasn't any there from the beginning. OMG. It was just mind boggling. Aww He's getting Married July 15th. If his dad doesn't come down for it, my Brother is his best-man :) How adorable <33*
Uh so went to April's work sat there for about 3 hour's and watched enough, and did crosswords and TALKED about god know's what LMAO. :) So After she got out we went to texan to eat. It was sooo gooood! YUMMM! And we smoked a bizzy. just april and I. Theres alot left.
But my back is killing and My Meds are like BAAM hitting me so HOLLER
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[Friday, January 6th, 2006 @ 1:36pm] |
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well, i'm up fairly early. woke up before 12 thank's to chrstya. her ass like fucking came pounding at my door like the damn police and shit. Went with her to the pawn shop, got her ring pawn (that boy is effing crazzzzyyy) Im excited...Enough Said. Chrstya Just have faith that life is happening as it should <3 Ya know I'm here for ya when time's get rough..
Currently making hamburger helper YUM! Soo goooooooddd.
last night was SOOO much fun. LOL. Kelley made me chuckle. hahaha <3
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| ComE a liTTle closer babyy... |
[Friday, January 6th, 2006 @ 2:23am] |
ahh tonight was seriously a blast. It was mardi gras at the coast. me, april, kelley sarah, gabby, nikki, and melissa went. but melissa got caught drinking and got kicekd out...i got drunk drank there :) hahah, im slick. this old lady gave me her bracelet <3 booyyy was it tight.
anyways, drunk not eating omg it's soo good..
i'm excited to plan her a babyshower :) i luh you girl,
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| Now i can see that we're falling apart from the way it used to be... |
[Thursday, January 5th, 2006 @ 3:37am] |
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Sitting on her bed
Blade pressed agianst her wrist
& suddenly she thought
"How did it come to this"
I lock away the pain
put away the fears
show im only smiles
and not the hidden tears
I know exactly how it feels
to be on the edge of your bed
your head buried in your hands
hoping this world will stop
just so you can get off
Dont cry about what you lost
Smile about what you had
She says "yeah, im fine"
as silent tears roll down her face
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| "Your strong. Don't let them break you" |
[Thursday, January 5th, 2006 @ 2:29am] |
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So Ah, Let's see. Went to bed early this morning about a quarter to 7 this morning. Sweet isn't it. I need my Lunesta. I woke up about 5 this afternoon, only to be rushed into the shower and scooped up by 6 ::cough cough april jo cough cough::
Surprisingly life isn't too bad right now. I mean of course there's going to be that 1. thing that's always going to be in the back of my mind everyday. But hey, it doesn't go away quite yet. But once this is all over with, nothing I repeat nothing will ruin my day's. Because Its true what they say "You never know what you have, until it's gone" and personally i don't want to lose the 1 person who loved me through all the mess up's, failures, big hugh fuck up's, the women who was my hero, bestfriend but also there to get me back in line with a little discipline. The one who kissed my "Boo-Boo's" the one who gave up her whole life just so my brother sister and I could be happy because she always thought we alway's deserved the best. You know, it's crazy to think. All the time I thought I had thee worst mother in the world, well when it comes down to it, I'll be the first to admit I've got the world's greatest mother. And you may be able to tear us apart physically, but never ever emotionally and mentally. So I'm just going to tell you this: Never ever take anyone for granted, because who know's when their gone. So tell everyone who mean's something to you, I love you whenever you leave them.
now that i've got that out of my system. I didn't really do much today. April, Kelley the girl's and me went to Pizza hut and pretty much KILLED some food, we had pizza, april and I had a salad, we had breadstick's and cinni stick's. once we got home we all had to take a big shit...so we all did that and stunk up kelley's bathroom. HAHA. quite hilarious. Uhh Sarah met up with us, we smoked a bizzzyy and that's about all.
I'm excited for tomorrow-Going to the Club getting pretty shit-faced before and having me a grand old time. Thursday night's are the best. I <3 Our girl nights. We seem to always forget the night the next morning though. But I laugh for the moment's Ill remember and LIVE for the moment's i forget <3
Well, enough updating...i'm holla <3
_*valarina <3
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| YouR LovE LiftS ME uP* |
[Wednesday, December 28th, 2005 @ 2:06am] |
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okay, ahh what's up. how was everyone's christmas. since it's 3 day's afterwards. i don't like updating this thing because people LOOVE to leave's those great old secret comment's..And that's beginning to get real old. but anyways. life hasn't gotten any better. if anything it kind of has gotten worse.
i try to make myself happy but yet i lose a few people. i guess i'm not as good of a friend as I claimed i was. i just thought since everyone else took their chance's to be happy than maybe just maybe i could with some support. got a few. but i'll always have their support. i mean come. it's my bestfriend of course ( I love you MeShell ) I just thought for once I could be happy. I just want a real relationship; with the love, kisses, hugs, fights, those moments, love making, ya know. the usually. just i really do. and for once i was happy and than i just heard some thing's and i just let it all get to me. it's like what to do? I mean Be happy and for once do somethign for myself rather than everyone else around me, or make everyone happy and me be so sad in the end? I just want to be happy for once. And I think for once I'm willing to risk it all, just to enjoy a bit of happiness in my life. Cuz I deserve SOMETHING. Seriously..
ANYHOW! Uhh What Else. Oh yeah I got the Rascal Flatt cd, Feels like today and HOLY SHIT let me tell you bitches. IF YOU like country get this fucking CD. every song I can relate to right down to the last word. :) I <3 it.
...I'm moving on. Lets just say I loved you this whole time-and finally realize you're a complete waste of my fucking time. So Holla. I*ll just say Have a good Time looking for someone who will love you better than me. You will find someone prettier and drop dead sexy-but looks aren't it all. it's what the person feels for you inside, and I can promise you faggot you'll never find anyone to feel remotely close to what i felt for you. and oh by the way, I found someone better...
~Valerie
pst. fuck ppl
p.s.s i love meshell so much and fish.
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[Monday, December 19th, 2005 @ 1:38am] |
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Alright. It's been not to long since I've updated but long enough. Let's See. Uhm. Let's start off by the weekend. Didn't do to much. Friday I stayed home and slept pretty much all day. OOOHHH yeah and went to the Texan with *robby, dane, and Robin. I had funnn! Saturday, Felicia-MeShell and I drank beer. We smoked minus MeShell. I was pretty blown. What Else? Nothing. Stayed at Meshell's for quite sometime today. It was fun. Just for your guy's information. Don't allow MeShell to cook instant mashed potato's. :) Ohh earlier Saturday I had my Family Christmas Party. It was fun but than again lame. Me and my cousin Michelle, we caught up. LoL She make's me laugh. She was talking to me about her and her husband's sex life and It was funny. And than III got lectured on Sex cuz She saw my Birth Control, And soo she lectured me. Which was good-Cuz Its nice to know someone care's. I had Fun. :)
What Else. Oh Yeah. I got my Hair Cut. It's cute. I personally LOOVEEE it. I think it's reall cute, and of course Steph did it. :) Don't be mad steph, i feel horrible. *Ya kno what i'm talking bout*
I got my BEN WALLACE jersey and it's soo cute. At First I didn't think I was going to like the it cuz it's Pink and White. But Pesonally I <3 it. And it look's really cute on me too :) HEHE! I <3 iT
...I also want to say oohhh BOY your a bit more than aMAZING!!!!
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[Tuesday, December 13th, 2005 @ 2:20am] |
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WELL LETS SEE. PiSTONS LOST. NOTHiNG ELSE TO SAY. HOLLER.
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| LovE breaKs youR heArt aNd yOu wiLL nevEr trUsT agian* |
[Monday, December 12th, 2005 @ 1:18am] |
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Well. As you see it's been a while since i've updated and boy do i have alot of thing's to talk about. Everything has changed drastically.
First thing's first! Ahh where to begin. alright here we go. I'm going to say the thing that has needed to be spoken now. but only a few get it ;)... I need to learn to trust again. All because love has broken my heart once and because I fell in love once and i got completely screwed; doesn't necessarily mean i'm going to get hurt again. I mean this boy is seriously in love with me and infatuated with me its crazy. Everything i wanted a boy to do for me and feel for me, he does. It's like when i always told myself i want a boy to miss me so bad he can't stand it, and has to atleast hear my voice before he goes to sleep. i found him. i'm just too afraid and i'm like ahh fucking it up. I'm just so i don't know. I mean I like the boy alot. but it's like he fucked me over bad last time and I'm afraid of it again. But i don't know. Trusting yourself to love again is like crazy. But what they say is "Fear knocked on the door, and courage opened it and nobody was there" it's that type if situation. (good qoute eh? haha; i'm good i know) And he's just so outgoing, himself, crazy, funny, DIFFERENT. just something not so oridinary. but yet. i'm so afraid. ahhh love just is confusing.
ookay ookkay enough of that rubbish. i decided to go get my GED. it's probably the pussy way out of thing's. but i just felt that this was best for me. I want to get to college start fresh, be happy. So some people probably think i'm stupid for doing that but for me it's something alot better. i tried going back; it just wasn't a situation i could be in, i was so much more unhappier trying to pretend i was okay with thing's. but it wasn't working. the friend's i thought were. aren't. i really only talked to 2 people. felicia, and meshell. i just wasn't something that was making me feel any better about myself, so i'm just getting my GED. it's depressing, but hey sometimes you got to do what you think is right for you. ill learn for my mistakes.
lately; i've been thinking. i need to change as a person. i need to know that sometime's you only really can turn to yourself. and somtime's it's better to know you can help yourself. i mean i love being able to go confide in people but sometimes it's also alot more exciting to know you can help yourself through a situation. life get's sticky. life gets harder everyday sometimes, but eventually everything i went through, gone through, and that's about to come my way. i'm ready for. because will i not only make it through it, but i'll become a stronger person. so please bring on the rain. (that's a song)
well i'm done updating for a bit. now it's the shout-out time.
[x] HuN~NaE-ahh i <3 you. give it a try. it might just work out. you never know until you try. so what you did something bad in the past. it's not like ********* was a angel either. i'm here for ya to talk to!!
[x] RoBiN rEnEe- ahh girl we sure had fun at shooters. i hate you though cuz you got a rose and i didnt :( jk! well i hope to see ya soon. i love you girl. annnd yup :) thee end.
[x] mEShELl: we need to work on that present for her, lol :)
[x] fish i loooveeee youuu! I'm here for ya ALWAYS :) You look just as pretty with braces as you did without <3
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[Thursday, December 8th, 2005 @ 12:53pm] |
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ahh let's see, i haven't updated in awhile. i'm hungry sooo hungry. going grocery shopping today YUM! I wnat some graham cracker's, grapes, banana's, ahhh cereal. ahhhhhh...
nothing to drastic has happened. besides ive given up on alot of thing's for one thing. a thing that shouldn't have happened now i've got to keep it and deal with it. ah well shit happens.
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[Sunday, November 20th, 2005 @ 2:00pm] |
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[x] molly gorski is a stupid bitch. END OF STORY!
[x] kelley is a dumb bitch too.
[x] MOLLY is because shes a hypocrite and EGGED meshells car for what reason? Oh wait I forgot, THATS THE COOL THING TO DO. And once again Mollys TRYING to be cool...
[x] KELLEY is a dumb bitch cuz she egged her car too but just the day she was caling meshell sayign she misses her and cant drink or smoke without me and meshell cuz she gets sad. SWEET
....Karma's a bitch
now leave the comment's bitches!
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| ..and this is how it goes <3* |
[Sunday, November 13th, 2005 @ 2:11am] |
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[x] Ahh tonight was FUN!!!
[x] had a pillow fight, well techinally we attacked donae, OUTTA love tho :)
[x] THANNN ashley and me did leap the frog...:)
[x] ....and stopped to smell the "funk" :)
[x] wayy fun..
[x] yet confusing and awkward.
[x] im trying to do the right thing, its just im a type of person that needs love to feel good about myself, or needs someone to feel good about myself...
[x] pathetic huh?
[x] wellll...i dunno =\
[x] goin to lay on the couch-waiting for meshell (maybe)
[x] ohh yeah i forgot lol
[x] it was nice to see robin yes it was <3
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[Saturday, November 12th, 2005 @ 1:21pm] |
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[x] PISTONS WON BABY!!! (6-0) whoop whoop...
[x] ahhh i effing love mac n cheese. like honestly it's my far by favoritest food ever. I could live off that and mashed potatos!
[x] got drunk last night with katie ASHLEY (yeap swanson) Donae and Tabayas. Nikki and Melisssa showed up too..
[x] Melissa Ann Greif, has lost aloot of weight. She look's good...Not that she didn't before.
[x] oh shit, robin I forgot to call you, I'm sorry dude!! BUT you've still got to tell me about that one kid, you kno you know...
[x] I can't get over this mac n cheese. It's soooooooooooo GOOOD!
[x] ahh i've gotta say it i tried holding it but..
[x] sometimes have you ever just i don't know. i cant put it into words soo eff it.
[x] falalallalalalalalala...
[x] peace out..
[x] oh yeah GOOD LUCK MESHELL!
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| ...FuNny wHeN u StOp tO tHiNk TiMe GoEs FaStEr ThAn yOu bLiNk <3 |
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[x] Felicia, I know right now You feel as though You've lost all of your friend's But Darling, I promise you That I'll be there for you. I know MeShell Will to if you really need someone. She's got the biggest heart I've ever met.
[x] Aww Jayce (YoLaNdA's baby) he's adorable and WALKING...
[x] I have this big opening up issue. I don't know why. It's taking me to long And I don't want him to think I don't want to be with him because that is by far not even what it feels like.
[x] Im beginning to second doubt myself, I hate when I do that.
[x] I <3 ShAy-NaE-NaE, KaTiyLn EtHeL, aShBaBy, RoBiN, aNd eVen YoU YoLaNdA!! :)
[x] +++ DD SiStA aNd LiSsA PoO
[x] Gotta go Donaes coming to get me.
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